Thanks for your response AmandaLouise.

A lot of what you have written makes sense to me. When I was in therapy a few years ago we did some 'child within' work. Is it possible to have more than one child within? I mean like at different ages? So the one who draws pictures, that is the one called Emily and she feels pretty young. But there is also an angry teenager with a different name and personality, but who I still feel connected to.

I don't know, this whole thing is confusing and scary for me.

I haven't been able to bring myself to talk my doctor about it yet, but I have asked for a referral to mental health services that she is arranging for me, and I sent her a letter which was a copy of one of my previous posts. She didn't mention it when I saw her but she should have got it and read it by now. So I am hoping that will prompt her to ask me about it as I simply can't get the words out to start the conversation by myself. When I try I end up blanking out and tend to come out of the appointment being told I am doing well but not having talked about what is really going on. This is not helpful.

Anyway, thank you very much for taking the time to read and reply to this. It is very helpful to me and I really appreciate it.

Milli

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