Don't know if you being treated with an anti-depressant or if you even need one. Does the school have a counselor or are you in therapy? I very much empathize. I take antidepressants, but when I get down there's no getting up sometimes. But sounds like you need to see someone; get up and make yourself go. Don't let life pass you by. Not at all diminishing how you are feeling. I can very much relate. The world can be beautiful. I want you to see that! I care.