I need help.

I have been getting a lot of feedback from group T members who really want me to attend group tonight. After the conversation I had with xgrpcoT last night, I am quite leery about my T.

Now, one of the things I said I couldn't manage was all the changes that T was making to the group at one time, especially when I'm going through so much - having the group member that was threatening return, having a new member and having a new co-facilitator.

In the past, T has said that he would always be mindful of the needs of group members when it came to bringing in someone new - he assesses the atmosphere to be sure that it's a good time to bring them on.

Well, he mentioned last week that threatening-member was returning tonight. I emailed him asking if the new member was also attending tonight - and if so, if he could hold off having them attend this week so that I could have a final session.

Two days later, he responded (today) saying the new group member will be attending tonight.

I am not surprised. I feel like it's a power play on his part, maintaining his controlling stance. It feels like a big F U to me, honestly. Since I'm phasing out, who cares about what I need or what I'm asking for.

So here I am, with people begging me to reconsider.....wanting me to attend tonight....and T giving me the big ol' F U.

I don't know what to do.