I whent to see my doc this morning and he examined me to make sure i was ok he aske me if i still wanted to do it,i lied and said no.He thinks i have bipolar so has arranged for me to see a specialist and has given me 2 weeks off work,he wont give me anymore sleeping pills though because i took all the one he prescribed last time and all of my mothers diazepam,i still feel lost and want an escape.i want to go and buy another bottle of spirits and hide somewhere and drink it all away.