Dear all,

Thank you very much for sharing & support, it means a lot to me. So sorry i cant reply one by one, but i surely can read your story everytime i need a support, like today, i'm feeling worthless today.

Before i posted this thread, i was talking about my depression with a normal friend, and she just dont get it, she cant feel my pain. And she's a careless person. At the end of conversation she just making me feel even worse than before. It's like she dont really believe how awful my depression is. I know her since 2010, and she always see me laughing, smile, joking, eventhough she do noticed that i'm a loner & a quite person who dont have many friends. But its not her fault making me feel worse, she's a normal person, happy life, have a lot of friends.

There are a few other people in my life who just cant understand my situation. And sometimes i feel like, they will believe me when i die. Cause at most times i do feel really depressed, suicidal, i cant connect with this life, sometimes i'm getting paranoid and just want to get out from this life. Sometimes i get up again, trying to be happy, but then down again, i'm sure you all have been there.