I think you need to call the doc back & tell him the TRUTH about how you feel. You're not going to be helped if he doesn't have the full picture of what is going on with you. There is hope for bipolar--for me it took medication & therapy & lifestyle changes. You can feel better. Hold on & make sure you are taking full benefit of the doctors you see. They want to help you, but can't unless you tell them all the feelings & thoughts you are having. Take care.--Suzy