Thanks for clarifying, Hankster.

I could have said no, but for some reason I felt unable to at the time. I felt so pressured and was in a dissociative state for much of the session. Afterwards was when the rupture started because I resented that he pushed me to do it, and I was angry with myself for following through with it.

It got pretty ugly, and Mr. Hyde made his appearance. Then, Dr. Jeckyll came back...and now I have no idea who's making an appearance at the moment.

We are encouraged to share how we feel when we're in group. So, if I'm feeling angry with T, I am supposed to share that. HOW I share it is what's important. Saying that I feel like he's being a controlling puppet master and gets his rocks off with being able to manipulate people is probably not a good idea.

Saying that I feel angry at his unwillingness to take my request into consideration is something that would be acceptable. But T is very good at crafting responses. It would be a no-win situation for me, that's for sure.

It's pretty clear to me at the moment that T is pulling a power trip right now. By attending group, I feel like I'd be submitting to his control. THAT is not a good feeling at all. Yet, at the same time, I want to give myself and the group an opportunity to either have some finality or to figure out what could help me understand that it would be in my best interest to stay.