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Originally Posted by TreeintheWind
In fact I would also fantasize how they could be, but not in the normal daydreaming sort of way I don't think. When things would end I would be losing not who that person actually was but who I had made them out to be.
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I used to do this all the time as well. I would lose track of who the person actually was in the midst of the fantasy I had woven around them, you know? And then I would feel crushed when they went away because I no longer had this fantasy life where I could retreat. It's tough to explain and so dysfunctional. Now I can't even imagine doing it because I can barely think of even wanting to date, let alone fantasizing about someone the way I used to.
Anyway, congrats on your realizations and on "leveling up."
