In my heart of hearts, I think it was dysfunctional from the get go. But it is so hard to walk away, and I know I should. The rational me wants to get away, but the emotional part of me is scared to. I hope that makes sense to you guys. (There is more, but I don't it may be a trigger for some, and I don't want to trigger anyone.)

I know what I need to do. But having the strength is a different matter. I've been reading a lot on the boards, and I've been getting stronger everyday. Still have those days though.

I'm so grateful for all of you on here. You guys and gals have been a real life saver, and I do appreciate it more than I could ever express in words.