I'm back from T and he is amazing. Feeling so much better now. We did discuss some difficult stuff, but crafty T managed to get in some positive things and I left feeling quite hopeful and upbeat. Go figure....He even "tricked" me into mentioning progress I'd made and areas where I had made improvements. Even when we discussed SI, he wasn't shaming or judgmental, he just listened and we figured out together why I was feeling the need to do that again. I don't like when he bandies around things like "Stockholm Syndrome" or "abuse" or anything like that but....he did it in such a matter-of-fact way today that it didn't upset me as much as usual. He also commented on how much better my affect is now that I am off meds, guess I had been "flat" and not really present. All in all it was a very good session and I feel sort of ready to tackle this next week. ....lets see if this feeling lasts more than a couple days lol