The difference in tone is incredibly different. It is as if you are compartmentalizing your feelings and writing as two totally separate entities.

The anger, judgment and self-rightgeousness is astounding in comparison to the (supposed) compassion.

I do hope you will seek therapy to help you work this out for yourself. Basically what I am getting is "my poor wife was raped.how sad. On the other hand, I am extremely disgusted with her for tricking me into marrying her because I cannot trust her, am better than her and would never stoop so low to be with someone like THAT"

It is super confusing and again like two different people wrote the comments in each area.