I wish I knew. I agree life is too hard. I can't find the strength to carry on most of the time. I keep going just for my family so they don't get sad for me being gone. I want to quit all the time too. For me, meds don't do a thing. I've never been on a med that made me feel any different mentally. I hate life too. Every child that is born saddens me. I don't have a solution for you.