Big hugs Elektra, that's a tough situation to be in and I do feel for you.

However, I am going to being annoying to you, and come up with some suggestions. I am a firm believer (but of course, it is just my opinion and nothing more) that we tend to be hurt hugely, and dwell on things longer than what is actually warranted when we feel lonely. It's kinda that we've built up our hopes on something or someone way too much, (and is actually fair to them) and because it turns sour, it hurts even more. I think the way to conquer this is to build up our lives to be more fun, richer (not necessarily as in money), busy and full of nice things. This can also build up our confidence too! That way, when something perhaps goes sour, or things are not what we wanted, especially through no fault of our own, we can then deal with it better as we've a lot of other things going on and friends to fall back on at a time of need.

I don't know your situation and if you are able to work, but I know things are tough out there at the mo with the economy, but I wonder if you are able to even volunteer a couple of days a week to do some work? That can be good on quite a few levels - we meet people and has the potential to make friends, we are doing something good and worthwhile, and something to be proud of. It's also excellent for the CV and chances of future employment.

Hobbies too are an good way to feel good about ourselves, and so are nightclasses - classes also give us the opportunity to make friends. It doesn't have to be extra math or anything like that, even something like pottery or photography - something fun can give us a real lift!

It's one of those things tho, can get stuck in a rut, and only we can change it where we can. But trying to improve our lives, ourselves is all we can do but it really can help. After all, it's better than sitting at home licking our wounds and feeling sad isnt it? I think so and every day we are busy is another day less spent dwelling on someone who really isnt worthy of you.

I wish you well and I hope I have not offended you. I just would like to see you happier and more independent.

Hugs.