My dad and brother-in-law are coming to stay with me for "Deer Camp '06". They will be arriving this Sunday. I have known this for a month but my extreme fatigue has prevented me from cleaning my house. Which is the primary reason I am anxious. I know you are probably thinking "Oh everybody has a messy house, he will understand" but I am way beyond just messy. In the spring a social worker came to my house and he said that if the DHHR saw my house they would say I was unfit to raise a child and take my son away. Yes it is that bad. It is a health hazard and difficult to just walk through it. I had a water leak under my house for a year because I was too ashamed to let anybody in my house to fix it. (Finally fixed it when we were no longer able to take showers)

So last weekend I was able to clean the bathroom a bit. I thought I would start with the smallest room. Dad called last night and I pretended everything was fine. After we got off the phone I took a xanax and smoked a cigarette. Not much of a smoker - I am still smoking a pack I bought in September.

I am sooo tired and I just don't know how I am going to pull this off. I have no money to hire help. My family is useless. I only have 2 friends and they are men. I have 5 days left to clean and I am so scared. I have tried to rephrase my thinking by saying cleaning will be like a scavenger hunt - I will find lots of neat things I have lost. I even put $100 in an envelope for my reward for when my house is "company clean". But I just feel overwhelmed. And so tired. I have been to the doctor and have lab tests pending to seek a biological cause for the fatigue. I started taking bunches of vitamins a week ago.

So basically I have lots and lots of work to do with a deadline fast approaching. I would appreciate any support from you guys. How have you dealt with overwhelming tasks with a deadline?

I feel like I want to run and hide. Anybody got a spare room during deer season?