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Originally Posted by karebear1
Mue- It sounds like you had such a hard time in group T, but that you expressed you feelings and thoughts well. I'm happy that you had good support from the people in the group but I'm wondering if T was supportive or not. Was the only comment he made that of saying he didn't say "harmful"? Hopefully he was silent and listened with an open mind as you poured your feelings out. Good for you for saying what you needed to.
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Thanks, karebear. I was glad that I got through it without shutting down - although I was crying and shaking through it all. It was embarrassing.
T remained silent when it came to me. He didn't address me at all during the session, and I pretty much refused to look at him. I was very careful with how I worded myself, but it was pretty clear that I was mistrusting of him. He said something about using the word "deconstructive". He didn't. He clearly accused me by phone saying that I intended to be harmful to the group so he was protective of the group. I told him that I wasn't trying to harm anyone. I was trying to get a clear sense of the direction I needed to go in that is in my best interest and needed help figuring it out. I didn't want to give up on something that may be of value to me. Yet, there he was accusing me of intending to be harmful, being unfair, critical, judgmental, dismissive and manipulative.