I cycle between depression and anxiety...or sometimes a nightmare combo of the 2. It's feeling like you want isolate, but then not wanting to be by yourself. That causes agitation, whiich makes it unpleasant to be around me, so my b-friend goes out to let me be alone and that reinforces my negative thought that people can't stand me.

That's me on a bad day..sometimes this can last a few days until i force myself to go out to a meeting, wk out ,see a friend anything that changes my surroundings.

When I'm realy down and suffering it's difficult to remember that these things work to pull me out of a slump. I have really force myself to do these things. And that struggle is exhausting and sometimes I just don't want to have to put so much effort into daily life just to keep myhead above water.

Thanks for the interesting thread

Take care