Actually, there are many instances where "putting on a personality" was indeed, done on purpose, other than just to cope. I am aware of this part of my personality and have always been aware of the fact that I do use it when there has been advantages to do so.

As I mentioned earlier, I enjoy having this ability and I would hate to lose it entirely. There are times where my "personality" will change to cope with changing situations, especially when I feel threatened, but these are usually the "not-so-pretty personalities," and the ones I have the most difficulty controlling.

Overall, however, using this technique for so many years had defintely left me feeling like I did not know who I really was, thus the inhuman and alien feeling when it came time to figure out who I truly was.

I know more of who I am, what my beliefs are, etc. now, but I still purposely use this "putting-on" of personalities when the situation calls for it. As for causing it, whom should I blame, if not myself, when I have consciously taken this tact?

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