Thank you 'maybe.

But how long is 'a bit'. I have a feeling Im about to argue myself into doing what I guess I already know what it is I want to do. I hate to be irresponsible and Im at an age where 'starting over' is getting harder and harder. I had wanted to settle into this job until retirement but my visions before I started arent lining up soon enough. I feel like a robot at work. Some satisfaction but always feeling like theres something else Id rather be doing. When I traveled I never had that feeling just got hungry when I needed and didnt find work. I hope Ive learned to be a smarter traveler and it can be dangerous out there but if I practice safe traveling habits I hope I'd be ok. I hate when I feel like Im fooling myself but all I know is that job is tooooo much stress and not enough love. I feel empty a lot of the time and I try to fill it by reminding myself that the experience is good overall and it can work out this way but something still calls for me to move on, leave it, that theres something else, something living, something that makes me feel whole waiting for me out there somewhere.