I think the anxiety I've been having, which my Dr. says is related to increased blood pressure, is happening less frequently now. I hope this means that my blood pressure is going back down to normal and not that I'm getting used to it. Maybe I should put more faith in my Dr. He comes off as kind of distant and dismissive when I see him.

I'm feeling rather anxious right now, but I think that's due to thinking about something that triggers me. Normally I can think of memories objectively but everytime I think of this I get overwhelmed by emotion. I'm feeling a bit annoyed that I don't see my therapist again for another 3 weeks and I want to deal with this right now, but I also keep thinking that I haven't talked about it over the last 25 years, whats the rush. I don't even know if I'm ready to talk about it, I've only seen her once. I may have said all this before, sorry if I'm repetating myself.

I feel blargh and I want a nap.