i don't know what i'm doing with myself. i'm alive but dead inside. i'm lonely. like a lot and i'm not talking about i-need-a-boyfriend-lonely. i don't believe in love.
everything just seems so hard. i don't know what i feel half of the time and when i do know what i'm feeling i don't know how to cope with them. i'm hurting and i don't know how to reach out to people. i feel so much pain. how long do i wait? how long can i wait? i can't go through this once more. :/