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Originally Posted by Faint
I feel dirty and disgusting
having flashbacks
I tried grounding myself but its not working and i cant think of what else to do
i feel like i need to self injure as well
I am sitting in my bed room on the laptop with the radio playing and all i want to do is escape this
Most of this feels like my fault something i have done wrong
because with the abuse most of the time my body responded to what they did
i am dirty they got what they wanted from me used me like a toy
its all that i am for
Abuse
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i'm very sorry this happened to you. i can understand your situation. i feel like this as well but no one deserves to be abused, don't feel like that. IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT. flashbacks happen but you have the willpower when they come will yourself to focus on something else. it take practice but you can do it. our body reacts to certain things, not our mind. i enjoyed some part of it as well and i hated myself for it but it's our bodies reaction.
stay strong and good luck with everything.