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Originally Posted by Millitoria
Thanks for your replies Amandlouise and Montanan4ever.
I see what you mean about the child within AmandaLouise. For me though, this child me, Emily, isn't associated with any particular time or event. Like, if I think back to a happy memory of my childhood I can feel that I was happy then but if I picture it I picture very clearly me at that age. Whereas Emily doesn't look like me at all and I can't relate her to any of my memories or recollections really. Likewise the angry teen, who is someone I argue with often in my head as she doesn't like me very much and is very destructive. I was like that at times as a teen, but again when I picture her she doesn't look like I did back then and I can't directly associate her with what I did/went through. There are times though when I have flashes of memory that don't make sense and then she appears in my head kind of smug and I know they are to do with her.
I am hopefully going to be getting an assessment soon, apparently there is a form in the post for me to fill in before they will give me an initial appointment. Hopefully they will be able to help me figure this out.
Montanan4ever - I am glad I make sense to you, and that things are getting a bit easier to manage for you. I hope they do for me too one day. 
Milli
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The child with in isnt always directly associated with a time or event.. I use direct time and events as a way to explain the concept..
the child with in is about feelings/emotions/behaviors/attitudes/ ....those kinds of things...
examples...
feeling like a child or the child you used to be
feeling like you just found/figured out the most exciting thing
feeling like its your birthday and you just got the present of your dreams or worst fears
reactions/behaviors...
hating someone so much you just want to punch their lights out so you pick a fight with them
arguing with someone and reacting like a child by throwing things
Adults throwing temper tantrums, or other childish behaviors when they dont get their way...
I use the directness of time and events because every human being has at least one time or event that they can remember that has brought them to feel intense emotions.
thanks for more information. Im taking another ....guess and wondering about something...not making a diagnosis mind you..
With some people their child with in is as real as your best friend standing beside you..in other words is an "alter Ego" similar to DID type alters but a bit different..
example my wifes niece was over this weekend. I wasnt always her "Aunt" until my wife and I married I was Aunt Sandi's friend ( she thought of me as someone who was fun to have around, play with and be on best behavior around company type attitudes) Now that Im Aunt Amanda. Im family not "company and Aunt Sandi's friend" .
I had told her to pick up her toys before going out to play. She turned around with the most hateful emotioned face and told me NO you are not my boss. This was the first time of out right defiance between me and her.
I suddenly had the ...feeling.... of uncontrollable laughter. (inner child)
Like an adult I was I Told her I understand its hard having me become your aunt instead of friend and that sometimes having people tell you what to do is not the kind of fun we used to have but its time to pick up the toys, you can do it or I can help you. which would you like to do.
Her stance, and attitude changed immediately and she said Im sorry Jenny doesnt like to behave. Who's Jenny? oh she gets mad and she hates people telling her what to do.
At first I thought Jenny was her invisible friend.So I turned a bit so it was clear I was not taking to Joanie. Ispoke to the invisible Jenny...Im sorry I made you mad Jenny. We have a rule in this house that we dont leave toys out for others to step on and get hurt. please come and help Joanie and I pick up the toys.. Most people with invisible friends point out where the invisible friend is But Joanie did not point and say "Jenny is over there but Joanie didnt do that. So I got a bit concerned and got a conversation going as we picked up the toys. Joanie told me more about Jenny who lives inside her. I checked with her parents and suggested a possible psych eval should happen.
I discovered they were aware of Jenny. they had taken Joanie to a psychiatrist and discovered Jenny is Joanies inner child / alter ego.
your last post reminds me of Joanie and Jenny.
An alter ego is similar to DID type alters but a bit different too. the person appears to switch and react as the alter ego. in simple terms an alter ego is a second self, Alternate personality that is the complete opposite of the person they are inside. usually if this is the case the person has only one but in some cases there can be two. A child self and a parenting type self. there is a therapy approach to this called Parent, Adult, Child. (the adult is the main person and the parent and child are the adults alter ego.
but like with DID only a treatment provider can diagnose whether those with in are alter egos vs alters with DID. thats how closely these type of alters resemble each other.
From your post information yea I ....personally.... dont think the situation is a run of the mill "child with in" concept.
From all the information in your posts I do personally think this points my wondering mind towards possible alter ego or alter with DID. Please dont take this as a diagnosis. its just my minds thoughts on this.
my suggestion ... it is worth having a mental health professional off line looking in to this with you. My therapist is always saying...if it concerns/bothers you its worth bringing up.