MUE... I forget who suggested it but I thought it was a good suggestion. Can you word it so that you are saying "It makes me feel ____ when you say ____"? Can you say it makes me feel like you don't respect my feelings when you say or do___ or It makes me feel like its your way or the highway whenever I say something you don't agree when you don't acknowledge that you've heard me but say I'm just being unwilling?

MUE... you keep saying you are not ready for T to terminate you or for you to leave and find another T but OTOH you say that you know you are upsetting him, that you are risking that he will terminate you, etc... You even have a plan if something "tragically" happens but are you sure you are not subconsciously making it happen so you don't have to talk and work through the trauma?

So how did you leave things with your T and with your group? Can you take a break and sit with this for a while so that you are just not letting your emotions get a head of what you may want in a week or a month?