I don't know how I got there but I stumbled upon some websites I really shouldn't have read. People were saying depression and anxiety arent real. I'm on my way to getting a psychologist because i believed that I had depression for years. But now I'm worried that its just because I'm selfish. That I can't just suck it up like other people... I now depression and anxiety are real. But I'm worried that mine isn't. And that when I do finally go to the therapist they will say the same.

I didn't even know depression existed until one of my friends told me she had it and was in the hospital a few years ago. Is it possible I got depression because subconsciously I wanted it?

I don't know where this is coming from. But it's a legitimate fear. I'm afraid that none of my feelings are real and it's all just me subconsciously wanting attention and not able to just deal with life.

I'm not saying this stuff isn't real because it is. I'm asking if its possible that mine isn't.