I do have issues w/ intimacy, It is partly due to the rape, it is partly due to my H's own abuse of me, and it is as I am learning threw T, what ever disorder it is when you are ignored as a child, not held or given attention. Reactive something disorder. Like a child who was raised in an over crowded orphanage. Forget what it is called. I find no saftey in touch, I let no on help me, I do everything for myself by my self and an surprised that someone could care about my needs. I have had my parents to show me I am correct, the man who raped me, and my H who said he loved me. No wonder I don't want people touching me. Thank you tinyrabbit . I like your words that follow your name under your avitar. I hate therapists vacations to.