i also wished you had friends who accept you and appreciate you. I'm not sure what the issue is but maybe it would help to give new people a chance to get to know you step by step. So next time you meet a group of people you could first observe a bit and see if you connect with anyone. Try to pay attention to the things they like..Ask questions about them and make them feel comfortable in your presence. Next time you meet you could casually ask someone for coffee..In any case it helps to keep an open mind, because first impressions can be wrong.