I feel you, 7. Today I downed 30mg of effedrine before work and washed it down with a beer.
E, A, H, coke, crack, meth, green, thinners, lighter fluid, bugspray (no really) you name it, I did it... It is the hardest thing to quit cause the mist beats the reality. Like you, I tried quitting, today was the 1st time in a year that I touched anything harder than weed and it felt disgusting and wonderful all at once.

You are not alone, 7...