I am so so nervous. I'm not going to apologize for what i said to you. That came from the hard. The raw pure truth. I am so hurt and so distraught over our termination. I feel like world is crashing down around me, and you, my one lifeline, is no longer.

It's an odd feeling, to know that the one person that you confided in, told all of your secrets, and depended on for so long is all of a sudden gone. After our termination, it will be like you never existed- no contact, no phone call, no little funny pictures to wake up. I feel like through losing you, I am losing a mother, a friend, and a confident. I know that it not what the t relationship is supposed to be, but it was what it was. and it was ok for so long. I can't believe that you took this way out. I just am in shock.

i am second guessing myself over and over. If someone you thought the world of and trusted could do this to you, could look at you and lie, then what else is the world hiding. all of sudden, I feel like I've aged years. I feel like the world is a cruel sinister place. I feel like I've lost faith in humanity.