Hi, I'm new, my name is Becki and I'm 29. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 when I was 23. I've been hospitalized 9 times, I think. It's hard to keep track of. I was recently hospitalized twice back in March. I have since stopped taking my meds, because I can't afford them. I don't see my new doc until the 20th. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I'm hearing voices again. But I have to stay strong for my kids. I just don't feel like I can do it anymore. I'm rapid cycling, and I don't know how to hold out until I see my doc. And I don't want to go to the hospital. I get so depressed I can't get off the couch or out of bed. And I'm so irritable that I snap at my fiance all the time. I just need some support to get through this really hard time. I'm hoping to be able to find this here.