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Originally Posted by xIxAmxSadx
Hi all,
I've been feeling very confused lately, so I wanted to share what's been going through my mind.
So, basically, one part of me is seriously considering trying to stop cutting. I look down and see all my cuts and scars, and they're all so ugly and shameful, I don't want any more. And for the first time in forever, I'm thinking about the future, what happens if I get into a relationship? What then? No one would love the girl with scars.
But, another part of me thinks, screw recovery, I deserve this, and I need it, self injury is a part of me and it makes me feel better, so why should I stop? I love it.
I know it might sound kind of crazy, but I'm just really torn between getting better, and not getting better.
What are your guy's thoughts on this?
I hope you all are doing wonderful.
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I started cutting again after so many years. It doesn't sound crazy. Sometimes I can't handle these intense feelings if loneliness anymore. And ill admit cutting eases the emotional pain for is rather feel physical pain than emotional pain.just because you have scars whether physically,emotionally,it mentally doesn't mean you're not beautiful. I have low self esteem at the moment. Though I don't recomend self injury I just feel the same being torn.a lot of people don't understand...I hope you,us well everyone who self injures can find a better way..thanks,David