i love your post :-) I have always struggled with keeping friends, but mostly it is my own doing. I have a hard time doing the regular maintenance things of friendship, especially when I am depressed. i am rarely friends with anyone outside of work.

I guess i just get annoyed with people and end up judging them and deciding i'm better off without them sometimes. I am not friends with ANYONE from grade/middle/high school anymore. my elementary school friends were fake (they never liked me for real). my middle school friends gave up on me when i went crazy in high school. my high school friends all moved away for school. then the one friend i had of my own couldn't handle my pregnancy and i couldn't handle her immaturity.

some days i am lonely. some days i wish i could just be "normal". i'll never understand human connections like most people. but that's who I am.

you don't want friends who can't handle your true self :-) hopefully this new friend will understand better. good luck!