My t just wasn't very attuned to me today. She said something about risking love even though there was a known loss that I was getting very emotional about. Before I could express verbally it she started talking about scheduling and June 17th and something else. I said "wait, it is too much, I can't understand what you're saying." Because I was so emotionally pulled by that comment she made about risk my thinking was muddled. I still have no idea what she was saying...

At the end she kept trying to get me to commit to finding strength is some concrete item or something. I have no idea why she thought I needed strength or how she thought an inanimate object would provide that for me. I tried to tell her I didn't think it would work but she was buzzing the next patient into the outside door and didn't respond.

I feel very confused and misunderstood. She's not normally like this. I felt very unimportant to her today. Makes me sad. Sorry - I just had to tell someone.