I am not well right now. I had a terrible nights sleep and havin such intense anxiety over things that are probably not that important. Earlier I took the daily allowance of klonopin this morning when I was feeling uneasy at work. Since I have been off work I have gotten angry on the freeway, made my son cry by yelling, and gotten into a fight with my fiancé. I don't want to cook dinner I don't even want to be around my family I'm doing all of it anyway. I feel like I'm coming apart. The nastiest possible responses I can say when anyone approaches me falls out of my mouth like verbal poop. It's not cool and not like me. I usually use cannabis when I feel like this but there is none today. Think another klonopin will help or could it make me more moody? I'm newly taking this (about a month) and I just don't want to overdo it but I also do not want to feel like this. Just want some advice from people who have an inkling of what this feels like I'm struggling here and nobody in my life really gets it.
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BP 2, GAD
Meds: 300 mg Lamotrigine
600 mg Lithium
5 mg Aripiprazole (currently tapering off)
Clonazepam as needed
Supplements: Vitamin D, Inositol, Melatonin, L-Theanine, CBD oil
be gentle with yourself.
you are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
-max ehrmann
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