Thanks, Lola. You're right. It is my session. I'm paying for it, and I can choose not to allow myself to be treated in a way that feels harmful.

I'm wondering if I can figure out how to mirror his behavior - or catch him in a sentence and ask him to explain how he would analyze it if it was said by someone else to him. He'd probably say that I'm being condescending, critical, sarcastic. And then I'd point out that he's speaking to me in a way that doesn't feel healthful - by using judgments and accusations, rather than expressing his feelings which is what he teaches us. Why is that?

I wonder how well that would go over. But again....railroaded....I probably wouldn't be able to keep up with his twisting comebacks.

xgrpcoT told me to imagine her sitting there with me, that she'll be thinking of me and if he goes down the same path, know that it is NOT MY FAULT and that I did NOTHING wrong. I'm going to try to hold onto that. I am not going to take the blame that he so clearly wants me to own. Just plain NO.