Hi BobCO
I hope you find that something that makes you feel better pretty soon. I do not have any advice for you, I am reading what other folks here are saying and it makes sense to me. In fact, I will take their advice for me. One thing I would like to tell you about your question why some people seem to have something to hold on to and you don't. OK, not for all cases, but sometimes, if you are intelligent, if you are aware of many things that happen around you and beyond you, if you are more self-conscious, it is more difficult for you to find something to hold on to. I do not want to say that happy people are stupid or vice versa. I do not want to say that depression does not exist as a mental health condition and that everything is about intelligence. But there is something about intelligence and awareness related to sadness.