Hello Becki and welcome to PC. You have found a site that has a lot of resources. I just went through an 8 month period of depression in which I ended up in the hospital. There they the taught me to count my blessings, no matter how small. Your fiancé sounds like he's supportive as he can be at this point. Many people here have faced similar situations. I hope this time you can find the resources to be able to afford your medication this time around. Some Drug companies offer Patient Assistance Programs. Good luck and keep posting..