Thank you I still believe that one day it will remain permanent. I often convince myself that I am holding onto happiness so desperately that I am creating this whole thing. If I could just release and allow my emotions to occur naturally and accept what comes, then everything would even out and sadness would be manageable. But on bad days (every time I return to this forum), I feel like I have lost control. It is too much to handle the "passing through" of emotions and lately it feels like my moods are fluctuating more severely and picking up speed.

It is good to enjoy the happiness, while not desperately clinging on.