it is simple you have a moderate depression.people go into depression several times a DAY so what u r feeling is true my advice dont be sensitive to it. just be glad that u r alive and have things in possession bcuz some people around the world dnt have shelter or even food its a reality so just be thankful to god. always look for the ones that are lower than u not the ones that are higher.. listen very carefully, talk to some friends anything just come out with a plan and even if its to hang in a friends place just u and him try not to do the routine things today do something out of your schedule ex, go drink coffee in a public with someone then come back before u sleep say to urself today i went out i socialized, when u are wid someone ul naturally be talking and the feeling of your thoughts will minimize but maybe wont go but u hav to start somewhere, dnt listen to ur thoughts if u r telling self i prefer staying maybe have studies to do then going out i dnt have even the funds,,,,just my advice do the opposite dnt stay at home do like 2 things today ex go drink coffee and then go watch a movie have a ride...,,,, my advice: nothing is permanent in this life!