Mine called me today and felt like I was pushing him away. He kind of noticed that I don't want to talk to him while I'm taking my exams 'cause I know he'll ask me all kinds of stuff and probably give me advice before exams like : You don't need to be afraid, stay calm.Nothing will happen... Somehow I know that if I might do sth wrong we'll come back to the same discussions, which I don't like. I just hate people screaming at each other. Guess that's a problem from childhood 'cause my grandparents used to do that almost everyday and sometimes my parents. I used to go outside or hide just to stop hearing the noise.
No, now I'm studying english and german ( beginner at that though). I did this because...uhm...I'm going to be honest, I have to get a job, then do music. A stupid fear of mine that I'll be on my own, with both parents dead and...yeah... No relatives want to see me doing things right. I have such strange relatives, it looks like I'm the total opposite. When I was in high-school I used to participate at shows, singing and my grandmother was like : I'd rather buy a bottle of vodka than see you singing, or you can't do that, you're just dreaming, you silly kid. I swear, I loved her so much when I was a kid, but since she made fun of my singing I just put her away. The only good thing is that I can't hate people, I just have sudden reactions, I get angry pretty fast and sometimes talk like I shouldn't.
Well, you can study music even now. It's never too late though. I totally believe that music should be used as a theraphy because it works, for real. I've learned more from it than everything else. It just makes the pain easier to bear. Too bad that today's music is so... uh. I just don't want to start a topic on that... But it should have important messages.
You could try and find somebody who knows sth about music if you really want to. I discovered my talent accidentally, I never thought that I would be good at it, so give it a try.
Thanks for your reply :-)
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Originally Posted by unfearless
yeah sometimes it's very awkward how i cant talk with my dad, my brother never really talk to him too, sometimes they both argue, or fight a lot, just like you & your dad.
It feels good when we making our own money, but unfortunately sometimes we dont spend it wisely, hehe, sounds like me tho. Are you studying music right now? Or you're planing to study music?
You know, when i graduate from high-school, i told my parents that i want to study music! I became a music-addict since i was in 6th grade, i started to play drums in 7th grade, a year later switch to guitar till now. I really want to study music not just from playing music, but everything inside music, like every single thing. It's my dream since i was teenager. But my parents let me down. Now music is just a hobby. I told you earlier that my first job as a cashier / clerk, well it was in a music store!! How poor, my dream is to study music but i ended up being a cashier / clerk in a music store 
I have other less or equal desire to study besides music, but my parents always said "NO" to my options. Oh well.
Yes hopefuly someday my dad will finally appreciate my efforts. You too take care and good luck. |