If you are addressing your comments to me, yes I want to like sex and have a pretty healthy sex drive, I think, but the only outlet is masturbation. I think the issue is my attitude toward relationships.. I like being alone a lot, for the freedom.. also makes it easier to work on my own issues in therapy, being alone. And being with somebody scares the dickens out of me, probably because my early experience of being bonded with my mother was traumatic. (She was very depressed and anxious, is what I think.)