I don't know lovebird, I really hope you are well soon. Now would be good. Time is painful isn't it. It's frustrating to hear "nothing lasts" when something goes on for so long.

I rode my bike 8 - 10 miles the past couple days because I had no other options to get to appointments, it was over 100 degrees. But I kind of felt good that I did it even though it was hard.

Just got home from the ride, I feel miserable again, the feeling of you did good only last a few minutes I guess. But at least I encouraged myself.

I've been anxious again the past few days. Bummed that anxiety is back. I don't have the power in my mind to see something nice about the future or to create it. I just stay miserable in my little box.