the job description(JD) of being a boyfriend is that they worship the ground you walk on, crave the air you breathe and love every bone in your body. they shoud adore everything about you and be prepared to give everything to make you happy and protect you. any guy who can not, will not or does not adhere to the JD is not worth spending your time with.
there is one man out there in the big wide world who will be willing to adhere to the JD and that is the man for you not this waste of space you are presently wasting your life away with.