I guess anything is worth a shot, but it's not like we don't regularly go out for dinner, shopping, etc.

I've been thinking it through and I've come to the conclusion that I just have to go ahead and be honest with her about it. As messed up as it sounds, I'm tired of trying to be husband and father of the year. If I don't get to cut loose without the b.s. and the angry, guilt inducing phone calls, I'm going to go F-in' nuts. Is this immature of me or is this like the normal ebb and flow? It's been such a long time since I've just done what I wanted that I can' tell.