I never thought is talk about this but I am on here support. It's been 7 years since I was in a relationship. She left me for an abusive guy because I was Too Nice for her. My mom passed when I was 10 and I just recently been able to open up to my counselor about a certain past abuse I had somehow blocked out of my mind that person also introduced Mr to porn when i was 10. It's been hard dealing with 1 rejection after another for being Too Nice...porn and masturbation just enough for me anymore especially when I hear other people in my apartment building having sex. These guys drink,do drugs,and often times I hear yelling and fighting. Yet here is a nice guy all alone can't even get a date. I feel like a loser because all I can do is masturbate while women go for abusers. Videos just don't cut it for me. I've gotten back to drinking a few times and wanting to end this loneliness one way or another. Masturbation isn't bad but sometimes its not enough. I'm not a bad person just Frustrated...