You are not alone. I can write I feel this way from time to time, trying to reach achievable goals help me makes it through.

As for love, some days I truly believe it can be fulfilled by pets.

I have a public mask that drains so much energy out of me when I have to meet people.

As for the fear of becoming lost in the emotional pain, I cling to one thing that I can't quite believe that we all can be healed by something that is more powerful than any of us.

Take care.