Been preoccupied by a thought lately: I certainly don't want to kill myself (could never put my parents through that), and I don't even want to die. But if I could just like...stop existing somehow, that would be lovely. =/

I was able to get some cleaning done today, at least. A neighbor is coming over while we're on vacation to check on the cats so the house needs to be presentable. Not much but I guess it's something.