I've been battling with social anxiety for over 5 years, and I'm only 18. I'm not like anyone else I've met that's my age. I don't go out to parties, don't do any activities with others my age, I'm not in a relationship, and I don't have any close friends, except one. I started college in the fall, and I seriously thought about not going to college because I didn't want to meet new people and do new things. I get nervous every time I drive. I've never gone through drive-thrus, nor have I went to a grocery store by myself. I hate myself because I can't do anything normal people can. When I'm in a public place I just feel like everyone's starring at me, judging me and making fun of me. Even in therapy I get so nervous before and all during the appointment; so nervous I vomit and can't eat for days. My anxiety has taken over my life and I have no hope for the future. I just want to be my old self again.