I'm sorry this year has been so tough, Sara. I'm wondering if your entrance into adulthood is bringing more struggles. I didn't get diagnosed with BPD until I was older. I wish now I had known earlier so I could have aggressively sought help. But years ago BPD was seen as untreatable anyway.....

There is help now, though. I'm not saying it's easy. The pain is so deep and a fear of abandonment is behind our behavior. But it can be treated, and you at least know what "beast" you're dealing with. Please don't give up!