Hey there. I'm sorry to hear that things went south for you. It's good that you're back here to talk it out and get support rather than bottling it all up. It's also good that you're not abusing alcohol or codeine anymore. Those will really mess you up and create more problems! I can see why the three months of work away from home is stressing you out. Since it's putting pressure on her, perhaps you should step back a bit and give her room to breathe. The more you pursue her, the more you may actually be pushing her away. I would hate to see that happen to you.