Long story!And I really need help/support.Me and my so called "BFF" have been friends for 20years.Well in 2011 I was hurt really bad in a car accident and I was having trouble getting a diagnosis of what was wrong with me.Because it was a MVA there were all MDs that would not see me because it was a MVA.It can get messy because it was not my fault and both parties had insurance.But I could not get a diagnosis until 15MDs later and a year and half later of fighting strong ALONE.

So in mean time of "undiagnosis"Me and my BFF had a falling out around the holidays and did not talk for about four month's.I still did not have a diagnosis when we made up....but I was really showing problems mentally and physically for instance my speech was slurred and I was on bed rest....6month's later I get a few heartbreaking diagnosis such as Post concussive syndrome,anxiety,depression,physical injuries and post traumatic stress disorder

Ok so nine months back I finally got threw a war of hell of a year and half of fighting for a diagnosis My so called "BFF" get's really sick this Monday and had to go to hospital and they admitted her.I was with her at hospital everyday for 4days I also was advocating to the MDs for her and then calming her down,comforting her etc.while none of her family could make it until Thursday to see her.I took care of her and was there for her. Her aunt finally come up to hospital but I ended up giving her a round trip ticket ride back and forth to hospital. I did it unwanting.I told my friend driving really wears me out that I cannot be the free cab.

**My BFF was not there for me at all threw my hard times of injuries and undiagnosis**If she was to call or anything it was just depressing to me and would make me keep falling into hole or relapsing with any progress.I was hurt she did not stand by my side.She would not even come visit me except maybe once a month and lives 5 blocks away.

So now tables turned and I decided in my healing progress to not consume hate and be there for her.Since we have been ok friends for a long time and on good terms since I got my diagnosis but she still had shady tendencies and treated me kind of bad.As time past I made a great progress all by myself, family, and my team of MDs. dealing with my behavior,my stress,anxiety,depression,panic,pain etc.

Thursday at hospital she said something really mean, selfish, and heartless.She said that we fell out that new years because I had too many problems and that she was tired of hearing about and she stopped talking to me because she felt like my therapist I was angry she said this!I just sat in hospital with her for 4 days, got her a card, and some balloons!! And this is what I get for treatment?Don't good friends of 20years stick together threw good and bad?Why would one think to leave the very sick friend and when she came back to me never formally addressed an apology?

At this point I had a bad night because of her hate and she knows I'm hurt and clearly does not care cause she has made no effort to owe me apology.I suppose to get up in morning and go back to hospital and I said I was not coming....She just responded ok can you just drive by my house to check on it?I did not answer and I feel she hurt me so many times and NEVER apologize....What do I do?How do I handle this?I am truly hurt and never want to be her friend again.

I need some advice.sorry if messy...Im half awake.


I got angry because I apologized for my behavior etc right away after I got diagnosis.And she threw it back in my face Thursday....and really hurt me.I think this friendship is WAY OVER!